Do you ever have one of those moments where the enormity of your world hits you?? Sometimes its at a joyous moment like at a wedding. Sometimes its when you find out terrible news that you can't quite comprehend. Sometimes you are just driving in the car listening to a country song (written to make you cry) and suddenly you are overwhelmed with the beauty and love of your life.
I cry a lot. For better or worse, its not really something I try to hide. I cry when I am sad, when I get my feelings hurt, when I have to leave someone I love or when I love someone so much it feels like my heart is going to explode.
I had one of those moments today - the in the car one. It was dusk, I was in the car, the radio was playing a song about stopping and appreciating where you are b/c you will miss it one day and I burst into tears. Tears of joy, sorrow, regret, expectation, happiness, love, longing, hope and thankfulness. It was a cry for my whole life. A cry that continued when I got into the house b/c it was so big and as equally happy as sad that it all had to come out.
I know I am living a time now that I will look back on and smile about one day. Even with struggles and dramas, I know I am in a good moment in my life. I have a hunch that the struggles and dramas will softly fade into the background and I will remember things in wispy colors and smiles.
Yoga taught me how to look around and cry sometimes. It slowed me down, opened me up and brought out emotion I didn't want to feel. Now I am thankful when that emotion over takes me. It wakes me out of my sleeply autopilot mode that takes the richness of my life for granted. It sticks me straight in front of the depth of my human experience and it overwhelms me. But I am glad that it does.
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